144.6

I beat my arms and legs senseless when I saw that number.

I weighed 141.6 this morning.

I need laxatives.

I'm going vegetarian, maybe vegan. Did you know...that every carton of milk you buy, ones that are factory-made, anyway, are 2% blood and pus from the utters of the cows?

And if you've seen Jamie Oliver's Food Revolution, you'd know why I'll never even look at another chicken nugget again...they're basically fried lumps of flour and ground up chicken carcass, minus all the actual usable meat.

Kat told me yesterday how Midas's girlfriend put on her MySpace that she's sick of him already, bored with him. The way he looks at her and holds her suggests he has no clue she feels this way. She won't leave him, yet though-until she finds another guy she can chase after. Because in the end, she's still the kind of girl who likes having a guy around to shower her with affection.

Part of me wants her to just get it the hell over with and dump him, because it kills me to see them together when she doesn't even care. Another...almost wants her to just stay with him until school ends and he moves away. I don't want to see him hurt.

...God fucking dammit. I really thought he had found happiness. Like a bunch of teenagers can be in love :P but they can still form meaningful relationships...the Ice Queen's incapable of love, or commitment, for the matter, though.

GODAMN FLORENCE'S GUITARIST LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE MIDAS...I saw the video on YouTube, her performing with Billy Bragg, and I wanted to cry. I haven't seen him in days...

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