Interesting. Very, very interesting.

It's so strange to look back on previous posts or things like that and see how hopeful and determined I was.

Fast-forward however many months: and it's just not what I thought it would be.

Maybe because things just haven't been so easy? Breaks are the worse- from school or work or wherever, and you just have family. Unless you can flee and escape them for awhile, you're going to have to play along.

Maybe I haven't been doing so well because I was discouraged-I thought I only weight 150, 149 minus water weight, until I visited my friend's house. Decided to try out her electronic scale.

Apparently mine is off...WAY off. Scarily so.

That morning, my scale read 149. After a day of fasting with moderate exercise (constantly moving around) it probably would have read something like 148.

I step on, looking forward to seeing that "4"... and it's an even 152.0-----

....???....

....!!!....

But I haven't fasted since last Sunday. I was super-excited about it, too, exercising cleaning all day. But I binged Monday, and gained a pound from what I had lost.

This past week, I've meant to fast, but have only restricted moderately.

I always end up going over 1000...but never over 1500.

Plus, I work my ass off every day, burning about 500. --(Give me a break, here...I have no equipment :(

So it's gone down...except it's going back up.

Today I unfortunately went over the 1800 mark, and dinner's been prepared...I'll try and get out of it, but if I have to...complain about a stomachache?

I wanted to save a post until I was sure I was definitely set in the 140's.

But why wait?