138.6

This morning. Without even starving (*AHEM* fasting)

OF course, I just ate a small DQ Blizzard, French Silk Pie.
-680 calories
-31 g fat

...I was freaking this morning...woke up hungry, but there's no food in the house.
Well, frozen pizza, pancake batter, and white bread do not count.

But nothing else.

I didn't want frozen veggies-it was ten in the morning.

I didn't want crackers-they're way too salty, I thought.

I sat on my bed rocking back and forth my tear ducts filled with the familiar tension, but no tears.

Then mom took a shower, and since Anabel doesn't let me eat around other people, I took this opportunity to eat 4 jellybeans and 2 saltine crackers with mustard.

I felt okay...no freaking out because of the eating.

Then I had the blizzard. But...I want so badly to stay in the 30s.

YAYYYYYYYY I fit into my friend's old size ten jeans!! :D

Last time I tried em on, they fit, but with massive amounts of excess flesh that spillth over.

Now, NO muffin top.

I look like...normal, almost, in them.

I have to finish all the damn homework this afternoon...including the damn english essay from a week ago. "Define the similiarties and differences between the novel "Hunger Games" and the film series "The Matrix".

I'm gonna throw in some mentions of Baudrillard, just to excite my teacher :P Most of the kids in my class would just copy the little intro she provided with us, and add some more mentions of how they're both about people who kill each other.

Damn this fake advanced class, for the stupid kids who want the credit.
Damn my wonderful teacher, who is so forgiving with grades.